last nigt tragedy

last night was an epic fail .. GOAT ! im failed T_____T .. huhuuu i realy2 should not do that,, eventhough it was a great moment for a a while, but it still ended up tragedy.. TWICE u alredy did this TWICE ,, u just leave without any words.. when im greet u, thats doesnt mean im leaving ! thats mean im trying to refresh & starting this back all over again.. maybe i shouldnt tell u that night,about everything i heard bout u .. but i just cant stand being lied.. y secret ? its like im going to trick/played u.. im a human being, and i do believe in karma..ill never meant to hurt anybody bcse i also never want to being hurt by anyone.this is hard i tell u.. ill rather being cut physically than inside.. bcse itll just ruined everything.. 
one more thing that im very concerened right now is.. the future.. how am i supposed to act dumb after everything happen ? why is that sound so easy on u ? FORGIVE and FORGET ?! FORGET ?! 
is it really so unmeaningful ?! ANSWER me plz .. 
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~  ~ run out of words  

THE V.I.P 3

FAMILY 1BT01 & 1BT02 ..
falling head over heals for this ppl after meeting them for only a few weeks.. this picture during our class dinner :).. ah cant remember the date already but it was in 2011 for sure.. everybody was having so so much fun and they was wearing their best clothes, ..i guess :P...
 i can feel my tears fallin everytime  i saw this picture :')..i wish i could bring back the time, only one night to enjoy the happy moment again..
Btw we have 'king of the night in da house !! BEN the one that wear kadazan dusun traditional clothes.. congratulation ! he deserve that :) . 
also we have 'artist' among us during that night..KOMENG , AZIE and IVY .. very amusing !.. komeng bring 'pergi ' song while azy and ivy duet for 'i love you like a love song' 
so many things hppen that night..time also fly so fast.. 
sometimes i feel like a dream .. i hope i could forever cherish this moment.. i hope no one will ever forget this memory,, even after having their grey hair .. 
unfortunately now is so different than before.. some of us have to go.. run out of chances,, maybe theyll be better out there, but .. they have left such a big space in our lives.. the laughter , the atmosphere, the jokes, the conversation.. everything changes.. i hate to admit, but this is what really happen :( 
Perry, fazlen,komeng,suhaidi .. miss u guys so much !
for the rest that still fighting, i hope u  ppl will b happy with your new classmates.. 

MONSTER

its been 2 days since the last time i 'talk ' to u .. wow.. im proud of my self :),, hwaiting ariey, its not like the world going to end without him :) mmuuaaaahahhah .. maybe ill get a bit moody,but at least i dont torture my own feeling anymore.. move on ariey !! theres are a lot lot lot more pple appriciated u out there better than he did ..  ppl that wont lie nor tricked u .. b happy u MY FRIEND, may u found ur true happiness .. stop playing around, or else the karma will chase u .. >_____^  trust meyh !!
 cant wait back to 'school' .. i want, i need to show u how stronger i am . . i know mostly of this was my fault.. for being so easy on u .. for being judge u by the outside look.. i was really tricked with ur innocence look.. bravo ! u did it ! ive done everything i never did before.. i feel like fool, but ill try to take it as a lesson.. so that ill be more insecure next time :) thanks u .. i learn so much about life from u, i really appriciated every moment we shared before,,but thats just it.. its my happy ending :))) 

I still missing u ~ its so hard for me to get u out of my head.. everything i do reminds me of u .. i really hope u could c this,, so that u could atleast appriciated me a bit.. why, why are u not letting me go ? why ask me stay ?! .. do u think i am that strong ?!!
the fact that u have other ppl in ur life is killing me enough.. i feel like a backstabber bcse i know her.. she is nice, she even sit next to me during exams the other day..u are so suspicious, u hide too many things.. i thought u as a liar, bcse everytime i found out some new facts about u.. its usually diffrnt from u that i know
what is ur problm actually.. i never imagine things could get this complicated..im not asking for any commitment or relationship..i just want to know if u we were shared the same feeling, thats all.. because i know this is hard.. we are still young,and unmatured but, nevermind,, who cares,, its all over now.. and i am on my way trying to standing back from the fall.. ouch, ! 
hey you.. i hate u ! ><

songs story

kelly clarkson_mr.know it all
Mr. Know It AllWell you you think you know it allBut you don't know a thing at all ain't itAin't it something y'allWhen somebody tells you something about youThink that they know you more than you doSo you take it down, another pill to swallowMr. Bring Me DownWell you like to bring me down, don't youBut I ain't laying downBaby I ain't going downCan't nobody tell me how it's gonna beNobody's gonna make a fool out of meBaby you should know that I lead not follow
Oh you think that you know me, know methat's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonely'Cause baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meYou ain't got the right to tell meWhen and where to go, no right to tell meActing like you own me latelyYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meMr. Play Your GamesOnly got yourself to blameWhen you want me back againBut I ain't falling back again'Cause I'm living my truth without your liesLet's be clear baby, this is goodbyeI ain't comin' back tomorrowOh you think that you know me, know methat's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonley'Cause baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meYou ain't got the right to tell meWhen and where, no right to tell meActing like you own me latelyYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meSo what you've got the world at your feetAnd you know everything about everythingBut you don'tYou still think I'm coming back but baby you'll seeOh you think that you know me, know methat's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonely'Cause baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meYou ain't got the right to tell meWhen and where, no right to tell meActing like you own me latelyYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meMr. Know It AllWell you you think you know it allBut you don't know a thing at allYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about me

la la land

everytime i crush someone new..i always ended up getting hurt,dang..i feel tired and fed up.. no one seems the right,, oh well.. ill just keep waiting u my prince, muahahaha :P i was worried..its almost the end of ramadhan T___T huaa,, i really love this month..i feel,.something undescribeable with words..what if i dont get a chance for meeting them next year.. ya ALLAH,please let me be..btw i was a bit touched when i my sister in law told me just now that my 'baju raya' this year was specially picked by my brother.. i really never thought he cared that much.. usually he always get me annoyed all the time..telling me how fat n dark i am whenever i get home for holiday..that dress, it was purple.. nice..same colour as he's.. oh my.. why suddenly being sweet with me ?!! weirdoo.. oh and also i am going to have a new nephew InsyAllah by this October..hope its a girl ^^.. muahahah i have enough with exessive 'man' in our family..

THE V.I.P 2

^^ .. here we go again,, more and more people to talk about .. meet NOOR DARLIAH ,, my ahjumma,eh omoni,eh chinggu ~ my guardian angel ^^ ..but also sometimes can be a wicked witch especially with flies.. hahaha she's a great friend, very tough n determined,one in a milion.this picture taken recently on our way home for 'hari raya' holiday..in a ferry.. she encourage me a lot,when i have no one to trust.. thank you Allah for always send me a good companion in my life.

                                   

with FOZILAH and cutey DEWI , right before chemistry lab .. I wish I could have Spongebob's life, got so many friends, full of laugh and happy all the time with no problems coming into my life..

abiotic friends :)

spending 2 weeks holiday with few of my abiotic friends :) .. hihihi . its been a long time since i updated my blog.. no mood i guess, life is so unpredictable, we are only able to plan.. and the rest, He decided .. 

Btw, that 'terus cintai aku' novel .. is so DAEBAK ! .. i admit that cry most of it,, the main theme was about a promise..the forgotton promise .so.. never ever forever make a promise.. if dont really mean it,.trust me its HURT.that 'nyanyian syahdu' .. ermm for me, not so interesting..but i just read everything because my friend said i have too .. hahaha :D
'new moon' , ohhh twilight.. im addicted to it since i was 17 . a fiction story.. about a vampire, human and warewolf..complicated love story and adventerous life.. really cant wait for 'midnight sun' later !! >< 

                         ~to be continued

LOLLOLOLOLOLOLOL

lol !! i used to captured this during my biology class ^^ 

n without lect in the lab of course ~ 

the  lesson here is 

'just make sure u dont get caught hugging' 

i arranged this scene myself while the other busy observing our experiment >___<  `sorry guys
        from the first time i hve entered the lab ,i always have a desired to tke picture with the skeleton
        of course bcse it will look awesome :) .. but after awhile .. i realised that 
          i actually dont have the courage .. just in case they will suddenly ALIVE  >_____< !!!

      ps : plse .. never let sir noraman know anything about this .. or else, ill be DEAD .. lol >______^

THE V.I.P

The best things in life are the people we love, the places we’ve seen, and the memories we’ve made along the way . .

this is phoebe alison :) .and yes she love KFC..

i've only know her for about 1 year.

but she is trully nice

I just want to hug you all over and laugh with you and smile with you and be happy with you . .

unplanned vacation ..to taman pertanian kilan labuan 

with nur azira , me , nurul syazlin n prescilla caburry . . 

thanks for the memories ^^

the one with red scarf is ros .. n i love to sing her name everytime i saw her >__< 

hahaha n her respond is a HUG ~undiscovered reason 

next is Fatin ayu.. the sweet girl on my left very5 nice+funny

n she adores bob marley's hair ..lol

my class of 1BT1/T2 never judge the person by their look.. at first i tot diz pple r those kind of those nerds

i mean ..those bookworm pple.. hahahha

n then they prove that im totally wrong ..

they r CRAZY !! omo so FUN !

i spend all day long laugh whenever they r around >______< 

but sometimes they cn b so competative .. but still im glad

bcse it wke me up .. 

besides .. they r also kind of sporting :) n open minded..

u cn freely talking or suggesting anything .. as long as it'll fun ..everyone will agree

thats y .. i am really  love meeting new pple.. get to know other pple better..

bcse it tot me to always b thankful for what i have treat other pple right

n this picture taken before we r taking our class pic for 2011/2012 :) n this is just half of them .. they r supposed to be some other who r busy checking on their looks i guess .. lol everybody look awsome dat day.. eventhough it was HOT to death .. just so LABUAN   ^^

THE FIRST STEP

bismillah. .

today is the first day im starting to have a blog..actually i found about this blogger world through a friend.then i learn that this could be one of the best material to express myself! since im a kind of person that not very good in communication..

so if there is any silly mistake that u hve dtected here .. then im really sorry ^^