last night was an epic fail .. GOAT ! im failed T_____T .. huhuuu i realy2 should not do that,, eventhough it was a great moment for a a while, but it still ended up tragedy.. TWICE u alredy did this TWICE ,, u just leave without any words.. when im greet u, thats doesnt mean im leaving ! thats mean im trying to refresh & starting this back all over again.. maybe i shouldnt tell u that night,about everything i heard bout u .. but i just cant stand being lied.. y secret ? its like im going to trick/played u.. im a human being, and i do believe in karma..ill never meant to hurt anybody bcse i also never want to being hurt by anyone.this is hard i tell u.. ill rather being cut physically than inside.. bcse itll just ruined everything..
one more thing that im very concerened right now is.. the future.. how am i supposed to act dumb after everything happen ? why is that sound so easy on u ? FORGIVE and FORGET ?! FORGET ?!
is it really so unmeaningful ?! ANSWER me plz ..
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Thursday 16 August 2012
Wednesday 15 August 2012
THE V.I.P 3
FAMILY 1BT01 & 1BT02 ..
falling head over heals for this ppl after meeting them for only a few weeks.. this picture during our class dinner :).. ah cant remember the date already but it was in 2011 for sure.. everybody was having so so much fun and they was wearing their best clothes, ..i guess :P...
i can feel my tears fallin everytime i saw this picture :')..i wish i could bring back the time, only one night to enjoy the happy moment again..
Btw we have 'king of the night in da house !! BEN the one that wear kadazan dusun traditional clothes.. congratulation ! he deserve that :) .
also we have 'artist' among us during that night..KOMENG , AZIE and IVY .. very amusing !.. komeng bring 'pergi ' song while azy and ivy duet for 'i love you like a love song'
so many things hppen that night..time also fly so fast..
sometimes i feel like a dream .. i hope i could forever cherish this moment.. i hope no one will ever forget this memory,, even after having their grey hair ..
unfortunately now is so different than before.. some of us have to go.. run out of chances,, maybe theyll be better out there, but .. they have left such a big space in our lives.. the laughter , the atmosphere, the jokes, the conversation.. everything changes.. i hate to admit, but this is what really happen :(
Perry, fazlen,komeng,suhaidi .. miss u guys so much !
for the rest that still fighting, i hope u ppl will b happy with your new classmates..
Tuesday 14 August 2012
MONSTER
its been 2 days since the last time i 'talk ' to u .. wow.. im proud of my self :),, hwaiting ariey, its not like the world going to end without him :) mmuuaaaahahhah .. maybe ill get a bit moody,but at least i dont torture my own feeling anymore.. move on ariey !! theres are a lot lot lot more pple appriciated u out there better than he did .. ppl that wont lie nor tricked u .. b happy u MY FRIEND, may u found ur true happiness .. stop playing around, or else the karma will chase u .. >_____^ trust meyh !!
cant wait back to 'school' .. i want, i need to show u how stronger i am . . i know mostly of this was my fault.. for being so easy on u .. for being judge u by the outside look.. i was really tricked with ur innocence look.. bravo ! u did it ! ive done everything i never did before.. i feel like fool, but ill try to take it as a lesson.. so that ill be more insecure next time :) thanks u .. i learn so much about life from u, i really appriciated every moment we shared before,,but thats just it.. its my happy ending :)))
I still missing u ~ its so hard for me to get u out of my head.. everything i do reminds me of u .. i really hope u could c this,, so that u could atleast appriciated me a bit.. why, why are u not letting me go ? why ask me stay ?! .. do u think i am that strong ?!!
the fact that u have other ppl in ur life is killing me enough.. i feel like a backstabber bcse i know her.. she is nice, she even sit next to me during exams the other day..u are so suspicious, u hide too many things.. i thought u as a liar, bcse everytime i found out some new facts about u.. its usually diffrnt from u that i know
what is ur problm actually.. i never imagine things could get this complicated..im not asking for any commitment or relationship..i just want to know if u we were shared the same feeling, thats all.. because i know this is hard.. we are still young,and unmatured but, nevermind,, who cares,, its all over now.. and i am on my way trying to standing back from the fall.. ouch, !
hey you.. i hate u ! ><
cant wait back to 'school' .. i want, i need to show u how stronger i am . . i know mostly of this was my fault.. for being so easy on u .. for being judge u by the outside look.. i was really tricked with ur innocence look.. bravo ! u did it ! ive done everything i never did before.. i feel like fool, but ill try to take it as a lesson.. so that ill be more insecure next time :) thanks u .. i learn so much about life from u, i really appriciated every moment we shared before,,but thats just it.. its my happy ending :)))
I still missing u ~ its so hard for me to get u out of my head.. everything i do reminds me of u .. i really hope u could c this,, so that u could atleast appriciated me a bit.. why, why are u not letting me go ? why ask me stay ?! .. do u think i am that strong ?!!
the fact that u have other ppl in ur life is killing me enough.. i feel like a backstabber bcse i know her.. she is nice, she even sit next to me during exams the other day..u are so suspicious, u hide too many things.. i thought u as a liar, bcse everytime i found out some new facts about u.. its usually diffrnt from u that i know
what is ur problm actually.. i never imagine things could get this complicated..im not asking for any commitment or relationship..i just want to know if u we were shared the same feeling, thats all.. because i know this is hard.. we are still young,and unmatured but, nevermind,, who cares,, its all over now.. and i am on my way trying to standing back from the fall.. ouch, !
hey you.. i hate u ! ><
songs story
kelly clarkson_mr.know it all
Mr. Know It AllWell you you think you know it allBut you don't know a thing at all ain't itAin't it something y'allWhen somebody tells you something about youThink that they know you more than you doSo you take it down, another pill to swallowMr. Bring Me DownWell you like to bring me down, don't youBut I ain't laying downBaby I ain't going downCan't nobody tell me how it's gonna beNobody's gonna make a fool out of meBaby you should know that I lead not follow
Oh you think that you know me, know methat's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonely'Cause baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meYou ain't got the right to tell meWhen and where to go, no right to tell meActing like you own me latelyYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meMr. Play Your GamesOnly got yourself to blameWhen you want me back againBut I ain't falling back again'Cause I'm living my truth without your liesLet's be clear baby, this is goodbyeI ain't comin' back tomorrowOh you think that you know me, know methat's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonley'Cause baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meYou ain't got the right to tell meWhen and where, no right to tell meActing like you own me latelyYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meSo what you've got the world at your feetAnd you know everything about everythingBut you don'tYou still think I'm coming back but baby you'll seeOh you think that you know me, know methat's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonely'Cause baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meYou ain't got the right to tell meWhen and where, no right to tell meActing like you own me latelyYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meMr. Know It AllWell you you think you know it allBut you don't know a thing at allYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about me
Mr. Know It AllWell you you think you know it allBut you don't know a thing at all ain't itAin't it something y'allWhen somebody tells you something about youThink that they know you more than you doSo you take it down, another pill to swallowMr. Bring Me DownWell you like to bring me down, don't youBut I ain't laying downBaby I ain't going downCan't nobody tell me how it's gonna beNobody's gonna make a fool out of meBaby you should know that I lead not follow
Oh you think that you know me, know methat's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonely'Cause baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meYou ain't got the right to tell meWhen and where to go, no right to tell meActing like you own me latelyYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meMr. Play Your GamesOnly got yourself to blameWhen you want me back againBut I ain't falling back again'Cause I'm living my truth without your liesLet's be clear baby, this is goodbyeI ain't comin' back tomorrowOh you think that you know me, know methat's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonley'Cause baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meYou ain't got the right to tell meWhen and where, no right to tell meActing like you own me latelyYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meSo what you've got the world at your feetAnd you know everything about everythingBut you don'tYou still think I'm coming back but baby you'll seeOh you think that you know me, know methat's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonely'Cause baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meYou ain't got the right to tell meWhen and where, no right to tell meActing like you own me latelyYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about meMr. Know It AllWell you you think you know it allBut you don't know a thing at allYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about me
la la land
everytime i crush someone new..i always ended up getting hurt,dang..i feel tired and fed up.. no one seems the right,, oh well.. ill just keep waiting u my prince, muahahaha :P i was worried..its almost the end of ramadhan T___T huaa,, i really love this month..i feel,.something undescribeable with words..what if i dont get a chance for meeting them next year.. ya ALLAH,please let me be..btw i was a bit touched when i my sister in law told me just now that my 'baju raya' this year was specially picked by my brother.. i really never thought he cared that much.. usually he always get me annoyed all the time..telling me how fat n dark i am whenever i get home for holiday..that dress, it was purple.. nice..same colour as he's.. oh my.. why suddenly being sweet with me ?!! weirdoo.. oh and also i am going to have a new nephew InsyAllah by this October..hope its a girl ^^.. muahahah i have enough with exessive 'man' in our family..
THE V.I.P 2
^^ .. here we go again,, more and more people to talk about .. meet NOOR DARLIAH ,, my ahjumma,eh omoni,eh chinggu ~ my guardian angel ^^ ..but also sometimes can be a wicked witch especially with flies.. hahaha she's a great friend, very tough n determined,one in a milion.this picture taken recently on our way home for 'hari raya' holiday..in a ferry.. she encourage me a lot,when i have no one to trust.. thank you Allah for always send me a good companion in my life.
with FOZILAH and cutey DEWI , right before chemistry lab .. I wish I could have Spongebob's life, got so many friends, full of laugh and happy all the time with no problems coming into my life..
abiotic friends :)
Btw, that 'terus cintai aku' novel .. is so DAEBAK ! .. i admit that cry most of it,, the main theme was about a promise..the forgotton promise .so.. never ever forever make a promise.. if dont really mean it,.trust me its HURT.that 'nyanyian syahdu' .. ermm for me, not so interesting..but i just read everything because my friend said i have too .. hahaha :D
'new moon' , ohhh twilight.. im addicted to it since i was 17 . a fiction story.. about a vampire, human and warewolf..complicated love story and adventerous life.. really cant wait for 'midnight sun' later !! ><
~to be continued
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